things have actually gotten better for me.

but when it comes to M & S.D….

it all just feels straight up. FAKE.

i feel like it will never ever be the same and i will just suffer and be scarred from it all for the rest of my life. it hurts. ive fought the tears for a while now.. i refuse to cry when im around somebody. but when im alone it wont flow. it’s hard for me to sleep again.. and my dreams have been crazy af..

i felt so alone for the past week.. ugh. at least i can occupy myself and smile for the people that surround me and make me happy for a while..